Summerrrr

sunburnt and happy.♥

My green thumb

Beautiful day! Time to declare war on weeds.

Some of my beauties this season:

Baaad baby fever

Me: Not feeling like doing any office work at all today...I just wanna be a MOM.
May 25, 2:10 pm

Tiffany T: are you and rod trying to get pregnant?
May 25, 2:22pm

Erica H: It is the most amazing role you could have! You'll be a great mom Anne!! :)
May 25, 2:31 pm

Mark F: Is there some news camouflaged in that comment that Auntie Nancy and I should know??? 8-)
May 25, 3:32 pm

Heidi R: When the time is right you will be.
May 25, 3:41 pm

Elizabeth H V: Yay!!! :). I can't wait!! (though I hope you are getting all the sleep you can now!)
May 26, 4:58 pm

Robin P: is there some important information that you have kept from us?
May 25, 7:10 pm

Me: haha no no, i really should have been more clear... i am WANTING to be a mom but it's not close to happening yet :( another year or so if all goes as "planned"
May 25, 10:12 pm

Mark F: Auntie Nancy and I will add this to our prayers for you guys!
May 26, 9:38 am

Robin P: that would be awesome you let me know. I am excited for you
May 26, 4:52 pm

Tiffany T: Well that's cool!!! Why are you in such a hurry?
May 26, 5:35 pm

Me: I'm not in a HURRY really, or we'd be trying already. Just feeling the maternalness/baby fever extra today.
May 26, 7:05 pm

Another emotional venting post...

Getting involved with the good just makes it that much more painful seeing the bad... I keep asking myself: all those years, why couldn't I make more of an impact? If I had done something differently, been harsher, been gentler, tried harder...would it have helped more? The answer - I'm sure - is no, and I know that deep down.

Got to keep reminding myself.... getting involved with the good will only make it that much harder to watch the bad. And getting too close will just pain me, because I know deep down that I cannot help no matter how much I've tried and want to continue trying.

How do I go about this in the adult way? How do I "end things" with someone I care so much about (no, of course not my husband, fyi)?

Why is it so hard for me to keep friends? Lately, it's been hard for me to even make friends, and that was never a problem for me in the past until a few years ago. It could easily be because of poor self esteem. Will they not like me because I'm overweight? Am I too dull because I don't drink and I like to just hang around and don't always want to get up every night and do something exciting?

I really have fun with my friends but I feel like those I've made in the last few years haven't been the best quality, whether they don't treat me well or don't treat others well or both. I have made one or two real true friends, and a few more I thought were true friends, and then a few I really knew were not the best people for me to get close with but I did anyway because I was comfortable with them. Does this make me a bad person? Did I do something wrong?

This is a venting post, I apologize if it doesn't make a whole lot of sense.

Pain in the neck - I mean head

Headaches remind me why I avoid soda... and any other source of caffeine for that matter...

The Big 25!

♥ Happy 25th to the most incredible husband (and friend) a girl could ever ask for! I am so fortunate to have him today and every day. :) :) Looking forward to the rest of today.. time to sleep now, though finally!

Emotional Lately

Why do I care so much about people who don't care much about me?

Why do I get so involved in other people's problems when they themselves don't even realize them?

When will I realize I can't reach someone I feel needs saving, no matter how close I get?

When will I say it's enough and that I cannot sit and watch the awfulness continue?

WHEN will I realize that it's out of my control?

It's been over three years already.

It hurts so much because I've put so much in emotionally and I am just now realizing I have to get out...

I think it will take some time, but please just keep reminding me it's what's best.